Many emotions, similar response

"I cling to my anger with every ounce of humanity left in my ruined body, but it's no use. It slips away, like a wave from shore. I am pondering this sad fact when I realize the blackness of sleep is circling my head. It's been there awhile, biding its time and growing closer with each revolution. I give up on rage, which at this point has become a formality, and make a mental note to get angry again in the morning. Then I let myself drift, because there's really no fighting it."

-Sara Gruen, 'Water for Elephants'-

The above mentioned quote, I remember when i first read it, is one of the most scariest things i've ever read. It's like I couldn't put into words how I deal and then while reading this book I found it. Not exactly rare but still quite unnerving. Watching the movie yest made me remember this and I just had to find this quote again.

I substituted anger for pain and misery at one point but it riverted back to anger as well. The last two sentences is one of the most painful and revolutionary sentences, I feel, we as people have to come to grips with if we ever want to move on in life.

Maybe it will help you. Maybe it won't. I just thought it was worth a mention.

Laters ya'll

In the midst of it all...

I've been kinda down lately. It's coz I came across an phrase that has so much meaning for me concerning the Enters issue.

"What happens when an unstoppable force meets an immovable object?"

I swear it brought back such good memories - which ended with me being emo for an entire weekend. No worries! Nobody besides Dhal knew - I was sneakily hiding it behind excursions. Saw Thor over the weekend. Pool with Mat. Mothers Day shopping with Dhal, Mat & Brennan. Family Mothers Day lunch.

It's sometimes scary how normal I can pretend to seem. Or does everyone hide it this well. Hmmmm.

Well I was blog surfing at/for work. *Yes its part of my daily 'need-to-dos' I found this.

I swear i've never looked at it that way.

Later's ya'll!!

Dear Hollywood

I very recently went to see Thor at the cinema and the weak ending aside, I have a very serious complaint.


Really? Like seriously? Those abs? Those man nipples? Those arms? That facial hair? Those long blonde locks? That deep voice? That's what you're throwing at the female population?

I mean my personality can only get me so far.

=(

guys like me

Backgrounder: Tania has invited me to the Cleo's top 50 eligible batchelors show or something like that at MIST club next Fri. She posted up the tickets on facebook and tagged the few of us who are going.

Tania : Time to cuci mata!

Me : uhhhh..just realized I can't cuci mata right

Tania : Where there are hot guys, there'll be hot girls. Where there are hot girls..
there are guys like you

Me : -_-

Step 1

They say the first step in solving a problem is admitting you had a problem in the first place.

So here it goes....

.... I have a problem

So now what?

Thoust should fear mother nature

I cannot believe that something as simple as re-potting (is that even a word) a plant became such a hassle/chore/trial/troublesome activity.

As you can see I can't find an exact word to desribe the last 30-45mins.

Mother Nature : 1 Me : 0

There's nothing like a gardening fail. Atleast not yet. =(

Laters ya'll

There's optimism and then there's optimism

No seriously. I'm not being cynical. Like many Malaysians I too nervously await the Sarawak elections results. These results will determine the next year or so in Malaysian politics. The big question being when is GE13?

How can one not sit and stare at their prefered online site? Clicking refresh every couple of minutes.

If there was ever a time for change and hope, this is it! But we shouldn't count our chickens before the eggs have hatched. The BN have had a lot of practice with winning elections and staying in power.

I for one do not expect a tsunami victory. I am hopefull that we can deny BN a two third majority and considering that during the last state elections, we only won 7/71seats, that itself I feel will be a victory worth celebrating.

Sooooo - until the EC announces official results i will be hopefull. Not optimistic, just hopeful.